How I’ve come to understand major depressive disorder
It has been 27 years since I’ve been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I’m still not comfortable in handling it and find the symptoms difficult to handle every time I have suffered from an episode. Like many people, I believed that moodiness was a part of my personality; it is a relief to find out that the dreary thoughts are not inherently me. I see this is true after some thought because I really am an optimist and like to come up with creative solutions to problems. Major depressive disorder changes this quality and it is hard to bear.
Why do I have to suffer from this dreadful illness?
Major depressive disorder for me is a hereditary condition that mixed with difficult life circumstances, has become a major hindrance in living my life to the fullest, which is what I desire to do. When I’m tired I have to remind myself that I am not being lazy when I lie in bed. Needing to rest in bed sometimes occurs every day for months on end. I have slept through most of this past winter and now don’t really know what to do with myself. I do wonder why I must have clinical depression weighing me down for years now.
Why am I telling you about suffering from clinical depression?
I am embarrassed to have clinical depression
Understanding clinical depression
Though it has been years since my diagnoses of depression I still find the illness to be confusing. This is especially true when I try best to follow self-care practises that are supposed to alleviate the symptoms.
- low self-esteem
- body aches
- sleeping too much
- change in appetite
- feeling of bodily heaviness
- slow movements
- suicidal thinking
I’d like to stress that depression shouldn’t be treated casually. Genuine concern and care help to alleviate some of the pain and suffering experienced in the depths of depression.
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